Something new!

Hi guys! So one of my favourite subjects is English, all these words we use can change the world, Martin luther king, Winston Churchill, Barack Obama, these all helped to make this world a better place, so here is a poem that I made….

His love for her was limitless,

But he always had a reason,

How he couldn’t survive,

Not under these Conditions,

But he always seemed to stay.


When everybody expected him to leave,

He would always show his shadowed face.


The emotions he never showed,

Especially the love he’d never give,

until now.


The knight coming back to his castle,

The princess he never really had.


He always thought of her,

How she made him feel,

But love for him,

Would always have a limit.



Day 9

Hi guys! so its complete, I’m a twit, First off I have piles of homework, not time to do it, and I have THREE test this week and next week, I had a test this lunch time since I had hockey all day, thanks for that miss! I am the worst friend ever, since i blabbed something about a trust-worthy friend, that would never tell anyone, she forgave me but I have the feeling that she will never ever forgive me, so to be honest my life is really crap right now, if you have read my other posts you will know,

On the other side of life, there is this cute boy in my maths class, as I might have told you about a cute boy, he just moved to MY class, so I guess I am quite lucky this one time, I think god or whoever is up there actually pities me! So thanks for that! I think he has been flirting with me, but really to be honest I don’t have much experience with boys, we had a double lesson, and a free lesson, I know love maths! this is great my grades are getting better while the cute boy sits by me, well he has a really good personality which I look for, he always knows how to make me laugh! He believes in not having a Facebook profile or anything, He loves football, rugby, running, but he’s still the kind of guy that has good grades, will probably go to an amazing university and reads the same amount as me, I think he is modest since he never realizes how smart he actually is. In the free lesson today, he showed me how many push ups he could do with me sitting on him… 100!!!! I think he is trying to impress me but only time will tell… I hope we have maths tomorrow!!

Day 8

Hi guys! So today I have messed up BIG time. I am the worst friend in history, you know what? I don’t deserve any friends since I am such a bad one, honestly one second I start to think I am doing something right, and the next… I might as well be dead to the world… I am not going to say what happened because I seem not to be able to keep my mouth shut. I feel so bad for what happened so I feel like the world is against me right now.

I have a hockey tournament tomorrow, and I don’t even know if my friends want me there, I feel like a piece of shit right now… and you know what? I am so happy I have this blog, because i can do or say anything here, I can be myself without anybody knowing who they’re judging, so if you’re in my school then hello!

I HATE drama, but I seem to drag it along everywhere with me and that is not what I am about, so why does it continuously happen to me?

Day 7

Hi guys! so I can’t sleep so why not write about my worries and deepest thoughts?! let’s go for it!

Okay so my eldest brother started to clear his floor, the attic floor since my other brother had moved to university and he had the floor all to himself… so that is fun! I want to create a study in the biggest room of the house… I cannot wait!

School, everything is the exact same friend wise, but there is this cute guy a year older with me, we have started to chat, lets see how things go! He is taller than me brown hair and okay, you got me he is not that cute… well he is but not the cutest I have seen he is so funny and has the best personality that I have seen in a long time, after going man vegan… I might be ready to date again! He just makes me feel so good about myself, but knowing my luck he probably feels sorry for me, but that is life, so you have to go through the rollercoaster!

day 6

hi guys! so today I had school, which was very boring… except for textiles and business, I find them so fascinating… English was good as well… god knows what I will be when I’m older so if it is within these three subjects I wouldn’t mind… but if it is something to do with solving world hunger or getting world peace, it would be amazing to be a part of that!

So EVERYBODY is talking about Christmas and to be honest I really don’t want much this year… a couple of novels, nice fabric, jewellery (if you’re American it’s jewelry which is really odd!) and a fitbit a fitness tracker since I love sports, stuff like gymnastics, dance, hockey… all that jazz! My friends want all these expensive stuff like a laptop, a new phone but I am happy with all my technology stuff and I have a bike! so there is not much to ask for really! Although I did want a hoverboard Segway, but I’m deciding to get the money I get to charity since there is always someone worse off than you, so why not help… right?!

I have felt so alone at school recently, it feels like my friends are getting tired of me…. well not tired, but I always seem to say sorry all the time which annoys them.. but what else am I allowed to say when they say “stop copying me”, right okay but I’m only doing my work… what is the point in telling me that I am copying them when everyone gets the same work and the same answers? even small things like a bracelet that everyone has, but the second i get one, all hell breaks loose. Don’t get me wrong I love them but I feel sometimes that they pick on me. we are a really big group of friends, so I could go with someone else, but I feel like I belong with these guys…. but nowadays it feels like I have drifted apart… I keep thinking in three years I will never have to see these people again… This makes me so sad right now to think about that, and I would be a horrible person to say otherwise, but I know that you just seem to forget the people that used to mean the world to you!

Thanks for reading! see you again!

day 4… sort of

Hi guys! so when I started this blog I did not know how much commitment it would be, and I know that it is technically not day four but who is really counting track? so the low down (who even says low down?) I have a massive pile of work which is stressing me out… why give so much homework, its inhumane I have a life too mr teacher! My parent divorce has been hitting me hard recently, but in real life,I try my hardest to tell everyone I couldn’t be bothered by the least… I think everyone know that this is a lie but I hate it when people feel sorry for you, and most of all I hate it when people feel sorry for themselves… you will not accomplish anything if you feel sorry for yourself, so what is the point?

My dad is being so annoying by asking me the same old questions all the time.. and going on about every single thing I need to do until I do it… he can be a real pain in the ass nearly all the time… it is quite hard to be the only girl in the house, except for my dog which is not that helpful because everything but you have to deal the cards you are given I guess. bye!!!

Day 3

So another day has gone by!  I woke up at 7:00am. But did not leave bed until 11:00 because what is the point, nobody would miss me or ask me whats wrong. And anyway I’ve decided im turning vegan. Man vegan, no i do not eat men and no im not a lesbian. I’m single and I like it that way. Not worrying how I look and not caring what others think.
So i have biology tutoring today. I have never had a tutor before so lets see if its full of crap or not. My guess is that it will be full of crap. Because school is full of crap!
And lastly i just want to say thanks! To you. For keeping up with my shit!  Dont know anyone else who does.and
i hope that you actually like my posts! Please tell me if youre going through any of my shit… much appreciated. See you tommorow… if you’re lucky.


Day 2

Hi guys! so today i had to work, I’m saving up for something I don’t know what yet, but something. while working i was just thinking about the amount of stress young people have in actually getting a job, and the amount of rejections they have had, no wonder our generation suffers from depression, self harming, drugs and alcohol, if the older generation want to call our generation wasters, they should know the amount of qualifications and stress we have to go through to get a good paying job. So that’s about the deepest my thoughts went today…

My lousy ex boyfriend I told you about tried to get in contact with me but you know what? fuck him… I mean he could burn in hell for all i care, but what is an innocent text?

My mother got a job, they proabably felt sorry for her because she is a mess and deserves to be miserable for the rest of her life for what she has done, she can’t even see that when the divorce goes throught her and the fat morbidly obese man she had an affair with gets married, they will get divorced straight away because he has destroyed three marriages and families for the money, so he will do it again. and when he does she might come crawling back and the we will be the ones to tell her to piss off, and that is the day I will find true happiness.

Goodbye! hope you enjoyed reading my messed up relationships i have with peoples!

The point in tidying up…

Hello again! I am naturally a very messy person, I love to be clean but I’m just a naturally very messy person, so my argument today is, what is the point in cleaning up? I mean it’s just going to end up messy so why not keep it that way? As I said, I love to be tidy but I can’t work when everything is tidy, I don’t know what it is I just can’t. Albert Einstein once said ” if the sign of a cluttered desk is a sign of a cluttered mind, then what is the sign of an empty desk?” see! I’m not going insane, It’s just my working conditions.

But it’s not just when I’m working, you should see my bedroom, a tip and when I do clean up, the next day it’s in the same place that I left it! I’m not saying that my bedroom and desk isn’t clean I’m just saying that it isn’t tidy… because I love to clean because I’m a bit scared of germs, but It’s tidying up that I hate…. Does anyone else in this world feel the same? Do you ever ask yourself what is the point in tidying up if it is going to end up in the same place? because let’s be honest if you tidy up everyday of your life it feels like you are in a never-ending loop…

Well i guess this is hello!

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 Hello to you! The total stranger that will be going on an adventure with me, the adventure of my dull, messed up and stressful life! No, my name is not Julie, hence the site address, but this blog will be anonymous, because I feel like everywhere in my life is public to those I know, and am friends with… so why not share it with you guys? So grab a seat get the popcorn ready and make sure you are prepared for the story that is my life! So just to start you off, here is what has happened recently in my so-called life.

I have just broken up with my boyfriend for cheating on me, he was a two-faced selfish pig who only cared about himself so good riddance. my mother who I have not spoken to in 8 months since she had an affair and is apparently suffering from depression which is bull**** by the way. she has been milking it to her friends and colleagues about everything SHE’S had to go through, which was just to leave us, which was not hard or she would have called by now, so I don’t have a mother… good riddance to her. And finally my school life, drowned with homework, I have a pile so big its taller than the height of my bedroom… so good riddance to that!! And that is the start to my very first messed up blog…